Reflecton #9

Reflection #9
So I broke down in class the other day about gymnastics, I felt so damn stupid, but it wasn’t even what everyone thought it was about. I was doing my presentation and I got picked on a little but they didn’t even mean it. Nolan has to take everything to the heart but I cannot help it. Anyway, I almost cried and what not because the other day before this at internship I fell at internship and I hurt my ankle bad because people want to decide to rush me and what not. Anyway I did not mind the whole falling thing, it was the long term outcome because of all of that, I was afraid that I would not be able to apply for the cheerleading team for Hawai’i and I knew that with the hut ankle I would not be able to make the audition tape to their standards. That is over with and I’m all past that, I can make I know I can.
I walked in to internship today ready to bust my butt trying a new trick but most of all to prove to myself that I can do it. So after watching the video’s for Hawai’i I knew that I would have to do this trick where I do a tuck and at the very end of the tuck, twist like you are doing a half-twist and connect another trick. I didn’t start working on this trick until the end of the internship day. When I started to do it, it seemed really hard but then after doing the twist at the end, it came so easy to me. I loved it. I did it over and over and over until I actually could connect a kart-wheel at the end. The first time that I did it, I busted my butt so good, I laughed so much because it was so awkward but like Mrs. Burke said, gymnasts do not care what we have to do, we just do it. She was right; I had no right to be all scared about the other day. What ever now, I’m just doing what I got to do and that is going to be that.
Well, exhibition is going to be in about four weeks so that meant that I had to start making my routine and helping that girl so that way she can demonstrate my teaching skills. This lady is slacking; I guess she really does not understand that I really have to start making my routine. So she told me instead of creating some crazy routine, I’m going to do my level four routine and it will merge into a creative routine so I really thought that it was awesome. I said okay to her, let’s make the routine and she told me to make, she’s the coach and she’s telling me to make it. I suck at making routines. I’m going to make the dance to every time we touch. It’s cool because; it’s techno so it’s going to be so much fun. I stood in front of the mat and I started to listen to he song for the beats so I can make the routine, but I could not think of anything but like stupid stuff and I really want it to look good because everyone is going to see this routine, well some of the juniors but they look up to me so I have to do super good. After trying to make this damn routine, I went to bars. Maybe I’ll have good luck today on the bars.
Oh my god, I almost go my kip today. It was so hard but she spotted me for the first kip and then after that, it tried it by myself and I did it. I found out that my problem is that I pull away from the bar asking it hard for me to pull in. Next week, I’m really going to have to work next week on keeping close to the bar. I really want to get my kip for exhibition that would be the biggest improvement for me for real. Next week will be an awesome week. Hopefully!